Like the OP my choices in life have left me friendless, alienated from those not in my imediate family, divorced, and barely able to get through the day without breaking down. For me, if my mind is not 100% occupied then I slip into the darness. 3 months ago it got pretty bad when a girl I liked rejected me and cut off communication, cliche I know. I was getting better after reconnecting with a girl I had a crush on in grade school, it even seemed like we might go out on a date...but she rejected me in favor of another guy so I've been in the pits the last week. My daughter is the only reason I don't attempt suicide...